Without Christ in me I can do nothing. Well I can do things but if I want what I do to be effective and worthwhile, I need to be guided by his Holy Spirit—Him living in me.
I’m a pretty independent sort. Even as a preschooler I would take care of myself without “bothering” my parents in the night when I’d get sick or have an accident. Unfortunately this (afraid of being a problem) began while I was still in the womb (but that’s for another time). So I was programmed since birth to “do it myself” and have striven all my life to get it right.
It is so refreshing to know that I don’t have to live (and feel) like this as one of God’s children. Did you know we were created to be dependent? Yes, you really did read that correctly! We were meant to depend on God and have union with Him. “I am the Vine, you are the branches. When you’re joined with me and I with you, you will bear much fruit. Separated, you can’t produce a thing.” John 15:5
God takes responsibility for telling me what direction my life should take. Through His Holy Spirit, He is the one who speaks to my heart to assure me of steps, actions, words. To those who aren’t followers of Jesus, it most likely seems like a cop-out, a lazy way to live–taking no responsibility. Of course, that’s not the way it is. I do have a huge responsibility. I must stay in tune with my heavenly father, asking for guidance, giving permission for Him to change and direct my life.
I must then choose to follow. Yep, very independent me. Give over the reins. Trust. (Ugh, that word).
Ask for help,
choose,
give over,
trust.
All I can say is that God has proven He is faithful during the many years of my life and experiences. By now these things are not as difficult to do. Don’t get me wrong, my independent spirit stands up a LOT! I am no wimp. In fact, I’m a Warrior Woman, with a strong personality! (Which I now know is not a curse and that God can handle me.)
When my heart is right, full of love, and seeking Him, He will accomplish His desire through me. And there is no other way I want to live.
And by the way, even Jesus said that He couldn’t do anything without God telling him to.
“I tell you this, even the Son can do nothing by Himself; He can do only what he sees His Father doing.” John 5:19
“I (Jesus) did not speak of my own accord, but the Father who sent me commanded me what to say and how to say it.” John 12:49
Jesus chose humanity and received His power from God. We can live as He did.
How about you? Do you struggle with this concept? Or do you understand it and try to live wholly connected to God? I’d love to know!
Big hugs and love,
Passionista Mimi